Come over to insomnia
Where the nights tick loudest,
And the days are dazed and hazed and crazed.
Step into the chemical dysphoria;
No, dance, into the shadowed caverns of
wilderness
untamed beasts
familiar phantoms
Your favourite darknesses,
Your favourite filth.
Your words: they stain me,
Like an ink-blot bruise, right under my skin.
A drop from your mouth blossoms,
And I grasp the wretched bloom within.
I’m so afraid it’s fated to happen:
Once again, I’m the pawn of this game –
And here am I, believing I’ve some control,
When in fact, I have little else but my name.
I crave this ecdysis;
In a house; not the home I knew,
With everything I once loved thrown askew
A safe haven: it is no more,
Destroyed by a stranger.
Not safe behind the door
The door of my mind
Is in danger.
Oh, dream-catcher, when did you decide
To let flood in the night tides
Of bad dreams and anxieties
To let me sink in these darkest seas?
The figure without a face,
He steals, he steals again all that I hold dearest
How could I replace it all, all that I hold dearest?
I'll run, I'll fight, even though I feel the fright
I'll run, I'll fight, even if it takes the whole night.
Inside your circle, a web: I look t
I sink into a restless sleep
Tossing and turning to escape the fight
Of claws in skin and cliffs so steep
To escape the anxious dreams within
I clench my jaws and grind my teeth
And squeeze my eyes shut tight,
As disintegrates the ground beneath
As in the wind blow flakes of my skin.
Happiness is that drug, in that place in between
The thoughts as we fall asleep
And the dreams as we slumber
It runs through my veins, and into my fingertips
A fluid unconsciousness
Running into reality
I can feel it swim in the breaths that pool around
Both of us as we lay here
Deep inside each others' eyes
Strange dreams have been flooding my mind.
Flooding: like the darkest water looming as a tidal wave,
But then, my feet touch the shores, and I'm in shallows.
Behind closed eyes, strange dreams I find.
I am the current. No! - I am the water's slave!
And I'm sinking into its belly gurgle, gurgle - it swallows.
Did I hear you murmur? No, I left you at the stairs,
And I can't even remember who you are anymore.
Why is it raining in this room? I thought I'd be alright
But the room is filling with raindrops and screaming squares,
It's making me anxious, I feel sick again there! door!
Like a lighthouse guiding through; in dar
I think you've got magnets behind your pupils;
It would be the only explanation as to why
I can't shift my gaze from the depth of your eye
And perhaps too, there are some forces beneath your skin
That render mine so warm from within.
We spent the night sitting by the windowsills;
The moon was a mere smile in the sky,
A little bit hesitant, a little bit shy
Unlike his earthbound twin
Shining off your face: a silver grin.
I couldn't keep my eyes away from your face;
Do you, too, wonder if we're living in a dream?
You're my favourite brighter than the moonbeam
That streams smoothly across your skin of milk;
Lig
Reflected in your iris, the transforming skies
They turn grey, then brown. Then, a shock of green.
I'm swimming in the world inside your eyes;
Tell me - is this a world in which I've already been?
The oceans move under the surface of your skin:
The ripples grow and spread; the waves collide
I can feel the ebb and flow from the depths within;
And as the moon is filled, she calls out the tide.
Across the cold glass, the darkness lands
And in the silence, the starless night sweeps.
I trace loops and spirals upon your hands
On the skin where each constellation sleeps.
This is the side where the warmth dwells,
An
These dreams are so tangible, within my reach, not far away;
If you tell me that I can't, I won't listen to a word you say
I can, I will just you wait and see,
When you're miles behind, I'll be flying free.
The only tethers that hold me back are tied
To someone else I take my first stride.
And the walls in which I shall collide,
And the mountains I'll have to climb upside
Are features I'll have to defeat alone.
I'll be able to dissolve this stubborn stone,
To melt these brick to form a breach
Oh these dreams are so tangible: within my reach.
I want to pluck eyelashes from your face;
I want to cover your sandpaper skin in lotion;
I want to fold your dimples into place;
I want to help you colour your every emotion;
I want to smooth your crinkled nose when you sneeze;
I want be the salt in your every tear;
I want whispers through hair - a secret breeze;
I want to trace my finger over contours of ear;
I want to be the song stuck within – you’re heady;
A rhythm surging through your limbs until
Your feet can no longer bear to hold themselves steady;
I’ll electrify your body to a thrill.
I swear, I want to be less selfish, sweet:
But I want you more than I want t
I lift my feet as you
pass the pipe beneath and
draw the little flakes of
skin and strands of hair out
of our living room rug.
You traverse the room
preceded by a proboscis
and succeeded by a rumbling
receptacle of rubbish.
You look like a superhero to me.
I’m washing the cups and
cups and dishes and pots,
somewhat grudgingly, though
also in a bubble
of dish-washing delight.
Once started, I’m on a roll,
and I scrub the surfaces
of our tomato and tea
and starch-stained steel kitchen sink.
You plant a lasting love note on my neck .
The bathroom sink holds no
chance; I show no mercy
when I’m erasing signs
She spins silks from scents;
the weaver of words, the seamstress of stories
coloured ribbons in her hair, circling softly,
spirals sigh with secret senses
she sings with whispers of woodsmoke,
of benzoin and myrrh, jewels of frankincense
her lyrics are made from the colours of a dusk sky;
her music, with newspaper ink and cinnamon bark—
and when she paints, her palette is formed of
pink pepper, violet ionone, amber and hedione;
her canvas will be just a touch of vapour,
a spritz of breath upon warm skin…
Could you know?
looking into the depths of
your alcoholic euphoria,
that crystalline glass, golden mirage,
facets r
Part I: Mombasa
It smells like sun, sun, sun and rotting fruit,
Like heat and green, life growing from the root –
White cotton dress: red belt, red ribbons, red shoes.
Skin toasted brown, brown eyes, warm views.
At the height of class 7: a Giraffe, taller than all –
Badminton champion, team captain of netball.
I grew here like a language, like a sunrise.
But then I heard Papa say that maybe it was time.
Watches in his repair shop stopped in place,
The grandfather clock in the corner ceased to chime.
Emigration was drawn by the hand on each face.
Mummy’s family had relocated, leaving Uganda behind –
In Tanzania and
Creativity buds within you before you are born, some say –
like the shape of your eyes, the birthmark on your cheek.
Others, that it’ll grow as you stretch yourself skywards:
a sprout blessed by sunlight, sprinkled with freckles.
I’m not sure which I believe: both, or neither – or something in between;
Could it rise from a cosmic encounter, or from a directional dream?
The thrum and hum of the drum pulsates –
does that beat that make you dance for your days?
Do you feel the inks slowly seep inside?
the stroke of the brush,
the chafe of the chalk,
as well as the pencil’s graze?
The curves and the b
I’d rather not know about the finning of sharks,
Or the desolation and ruin refugees are leaving behind;
I want to be able to understand more about quarks,
And know how a man can travel through London, blind.
I don’t fully comprehend the concept of austerity, which
Measures a government should or shouldn't contemplate;
And it fascinates me that bats hear to the height of pitch
At 200 000 Hz, whilst whales can detect even lower than 8.
I hate to hear of gun violence, unnecessary and tragic;
Of cerebral cells being slaughtered by viral infection;
Yet I am captivated by the indescribable magic
And intricacy of evolution, survival,
Scattered limbs upon the bank
of the river turned murky by dirt
and lifelessness
Plastic litter scuttles like crabs
across the underside of the bridge’s belly
Discarded wrappers
and soggy cigarette stubs wander along, battered
by the light drizzle
A beady-eyed, greedy-eyed
seagull chases after them.
Even he seems like cast-off junk,
itinerant in inappropriate land-lock.
“Watch out!”
He sailed through the air and landed at the side of the road, in a crumpled pile. Scrambling to sit back in the grass, Evan’s mouth hung agape like a fish. He was, somehow, almost intact. The truck continued rumbling past, and the sounds echoed in his head, circling round his confounded mind.
He struggled to process what had just occurred: one moment he stood bang in the middle of the road, death looming – but the next… The next, he was where he sat now. He looked up; someone was crouched down in front of him, gesticulating, talking to him. Tamara. What was she saying?
“...okay? Hello? Say s
Single white lash
flutters with the dark others
upon a semi-closed lid
He pauses to consider, a small
twitch of the mouth creeping
up his dry worn-leather face
A smile lights up as he says,
“A nice smell, this one.”
and selects a number on the scale
Unshaved patch where
this morning’s razor missed
but he can be excused
His brow furrows as he
focuses on the terry towel
held in plastic-gloved hands.
Head shakes a little now and
then, unstably due to age
and perhaps uncertainty
Old blind man sits
in a metre-squared booth
and smells for sensory analysis
She dove in deep, daring the ocean to swallow her up as it had done before.
Different ocean, different time.
The water surrounding her was a crystal clear turquoise, almost the same shade as her favourite pendant, given to her by her sister. The corals were bright and populated with stunning, lively fish that darted about in dizzying directions.
Directions. She didn’t care which way was up or down, North or South, here. She didn’t mind feeling directionless.
The water then had been inky, thick like tar and inescapable. It was uninviting but dragged her deep, like a magnet to her heavy, iron limbs.
All she’d wanted, then,
I think you've got magnets behind your pupils;
It would be the only explanation as to why
I can't shift my gaze from the depth of your eye
And perhaps too, there are some forces beneath your skin
That render mine so warm from within.
We spent the night sitting by the windowsills;
The moon was a mere smile in the sky,
A little bit hesitant, a little bit shy
Unlike his earthbound twin
Shining off your face: a silver grin.
I couldn't keep my eyes away from your face;
Do you, too, wonder if we're living in a dream?
You're my favourite brighter than the moonbeam
That streams smoothly across your skin of milk;
Lig
Warmth of amber on my skin:
I’m dreaming, once again.
Orange blossoms in a swirl,
Then rose and jasmine soon unfurl –
Silk and velvet, shimmered and pearled,
What a fragrance – what a world
Of poetry, art and scent,
That somehow I have dreamt.
You swung from the thin, low branch of a young tree,
Then, slowly, gently, you tried to kiss me.
I stopped you there; I didn't think love could grow
And if it could, I didn't feel that I really wanted to know.
But it did. You can't even reach that same branch, now,
So instead, we wrap our arms underneath the bough
And our noses touch, then our lips meet too
Nothing else matters, but me, the tree, and you.